Chapter 44 – A Variable Occurred
Fortunately, after my mother found out about the pornographic title, she did not induce any shame play or anything. If she had read a story in the middle of the living room, she would have died of shame, but fortunately, that didn’t happen, and she continues to live her life.
“Phew.”
When her mother thinks she is reading my novel, she hesitates even when trying to write a story. After hesitating once, Tteokshin continues the frustrating flow with fairly restrained description and development.
I couldn’t get immersed in the rice cake scene to the point where I thought maybe it was castration rather than abstinence.
After wearing a hat that even I didn’t like, of course my ranking slowly declined.
The story he proudly brought up was to show his potential as a writer, but the fact that he was only able to achieve mediocre results despite doing such vulgar things made me even more miserable.
“Shit…”
As my grades dropped, my self-esteem also declined.
In times like these, Hyeji’s consolation really helps.
In fact, it seems like an excuse for the shadyness of writing sexy scenes these days not being the same as before, but it’s partly Hyeji’s fault.
“… Hmm.”
I can’t communicate well.
Even if I could sleep in late in the morning, I always received a reply around lunchtime, but these days, there are more and more days when I don’t even read it until a day has passed.
… What happened?
I was worried, but then I shook my head vigorously.
‘Obsessed men are not fun/cool/sexy.’
Hyeji will also have her own private life. She doesn’t have to tell me everything, and she doesn’t have an obligation to follow Hyeji’s every move. A truly wonderful man should not tie his partner down in the name of love.
Because that is love (nods).
But.
[Hyeji, what are you doing?]
[Are you very busy these days?]
[The ranking is dropping.]
Fuck, I’m not a fun cool sex guy! I’m going crazy worrying about what’s going on!!
Finally, I couldn’t bear it any longer and sent the message. A few minutes later, a message arrived with a photo.
“This…”
[Sorry, brother. I was so focused on work that I forgot to reply to the message. I did see it. Furthermore, I must have been so worried… ㅠㅠ I’m really sorry.]
[A new cover was just completed. Does it feel too pure and pure? Even if you complete it, you can edit it, so if you need anything, just tell me.]
What Hyeji sent was an illustration. The composition depicts the heroine wrapping her arms around the waist of her male protagonist, looking up with sweet eyes filled with love. Like the colors, it felt like I was watching a scene from an animation, and I was filled with gratitude.
But if this innocent girl is none other than the main character in a fairy tale, isn’t it normal for everyone to imagine something like this?
‘What is this girl like in bed?’
From that perspective, Hyeji’s illustration can be said to be a masterpiece of conversion that contains elements of successful marketing.
When I saw Hyeji’s message reporting survival along with the amazing illustrations, my disappointment and worries disappeared like melting snow, and a bright smile appeared on her face.
[No modifications. It’s really perfect. You’re the best, Hyeji.]
[I’m so glad that you like it♡ I love you, oppa!]
[Me too!]
Today, I can watch the video of Hyeji fucking and not worry about Hyeji’s well-being. Make sure to empty the trash can.
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However, peace lasted less than two days.
After Hezzy sent her illustration, she was unable to contact me again. I felt like I was being so worried about not being able to contact her for just two days, and I remembered that the last time I couldn’t hold back and sent a message, Hyeji responded with a completed illustration, so I decided to wait a little longer. .
If you wait just a little longer, you can become a boyfriend who doesn’t rush you.
If you have a little patience, you will become a kind and considerate boyfriend.
While I was thinking that, at the same time, I felt a strange feeling in my heart. Is it like some kind of tug-of-war, a battle of spirit?
‘Let’s see when I can contact you.’
I’m not sure what kind of psychology was at work underneath it. However, what is clear is that he set a kind of Maginot Line in his mind, saying, ‘No matter how long it takes, I can only wait a week’ and was patient during the period of no contact.
Four days passed, and it became five days.
There were six days and then seven days.
While waiting for a full week, not a single message came.
In the end, the serial was canceled the next day.
And I thought it would be foolish to wait any longer, so I called Hyeji.
Hyeji answered the phone.
[Hello…]
[Why aren’t you replying?]
It was the first time she felt so irritated after hearing Hyeji’s voice.
Hyeji took a moment to catch her breath and answered slowly in her subdued voice.
[Sorry brother, I was so distracted that I forgot to reply…]
“You said that last time too.”
[Oh, that was last time too…]
“Be honest. “Why aren’t you contacting me?”
She couldn’t help but be suspicious.
I really didn’t know that I wouldn’t hear from you for a week.
Even during this time, I felt so pathetic and foolish thinking, ‘If the Maginot Line had been set for 10 days instead of a week, wouldn’t we have fought?’
“What did you do during that time? “Why are you so busy that you can’t send me a message?”
The sound of Hyeji taking deep breaths can be clearly heard through the receiver. Eventually, Heji gave her answer in a voice as heavy as her steps, as if she was about to fall.
[I’m sorry, I’m sorry, but I’m really, really busy…]
“You ask why I was so busy.”
[Ah, uh, that…]
Hyeji hesitated for a while and then confessed in a quiet voice.
[… Drawing…]
At those words, I instantly became angry.
“You say you draw pictures for me, but you ignore all the contact I get?”
[Oppa, that’s not it…]
“Do you know how worried I have been all week? I was afraid that it would be like urging me on, or that I would put a burden on him, so I held back from wanting to contact him and finally contacted him now. Don’t you think it’s really too much?”
I wish it would stop at this level. I think that’s enough. My head screamed that, but my body didn’t listen.
I have a girlfriend.
She’s so pretty and has a great body that men can’t take their eyes off her whenever she walks down the street.
That kind of girlfriend hasn’t contacted me in a week.
Isn’t it natural to be worried and angry?
“Did you think anything during the week of no contact? “I just thought I was going to eat well and live well even if I couldn’t contact you in a week, but I just threw it away, so I felt very relieved!”
In the end, I raised my voice.
There was no answer after that.
The phone didn’t hang up.
But Hyeji’s voice doesn’t come through.
… Are you crying?
Only then did her head cool down, and she began to recall the words I had said so far.
“Hyeji… ?”
She later called Hyeji’s name in a worried voice.
Hyeji said nothing.
There is not even a sniffling sound.
… What is it?
What else?
At that time when anxiety came over me.
Boom.
A dull sound was heard through the receiver.
My heart sank as heavily as the sound on the other end of the phone.
It didn’t feel good.
… No way.
As soon as my thoughts reached that point, I immediately got dressed and left the house. Even though it was a little late, it was enough to take the subway, but I went straight to the driveway closest to my house and caught a taxi.
“Driver, Hongdae, please go to Hongdae as quickly as possible!”
“Hongdae?”
“Hurry!”
Taxi fare was not the problem. Just finding a taxi was a blessing.
As I looked out the window of the taxi driving along Gangbyeonbuk-ro like crazy, my heart was pounding faster than what the meter said due to the ominous feeling. Waiting isn’t the best solution, but I’ve heard regret and regret over and over again, wondering if I should have visited at least once.
I don’t know how long I sighed, but I reached Hongdae just as I was thinking. Since I was already on board, I told the driver the address of Hyeji’s house, hoping to get there a little faster.
Eventually, passing through the alleys, we arrived at Hyeji’s house. When I saw the common entrance to Hyeji’s old villa for the first time in a few weeks, I felt an awkward feeling.
“Driver, I’m really sorry. “Can’t you just pay 5,000 won more and stay here for just 3 minutes?”
“What’s wrong?”
“It’s because I don’t feel well. I think I might have to get on again right away.”
“Then I’ll wait for you, so come out quickly.”
Before getting off, I had an ominous feeling and asked for this, and the driver gestured that he would gladly wait for me without any additional charge.
I decided to say thank you later, so I quickly ran into room B02 and knocked on the door.
“Hyeji! Shin Hyeji!!”
There was no sign inside. If there was a door lock, you would have to dial a number to get in, but that’s not possible because it’s a backwards house with no door lock.
Damn.
Shit… !
“Shin Hye-ji!! It’s me, Lee Se-gwang, open the door! Hey!!”
No matter how many times I bang on the door and ring the bell, there is no response from inside. At that time, I was wondering if I should at least look at the situation through the window.
Kiyi.
The door opens with a heavy hinge sound.
Hyeji appeared.
Dark circles hanging under the eyes on a gaunt figure. Dry, blood-covered lips and drawn cheeks.
And even the hangnails on all ten fingers without a single intact spot.
Everyone looks up at me like I’m malnourished and sleep-deprived.
“Oppa is here, yes…”
Grinning.
She collapsed.
