Chapter 138 – Freya Irene (1)_Edited
As a human being, as you live your life, like riding a roller coaster, there will be times when you reach the peak of life, but there are times when you plummet to the bottom and go into the abyss.
Usually people think that the things they do well are achieved through their own abilities.
However, on the other hand, if things are not going well or if you are on the path to complete destruction of your life, rather than lamenting your own problems, you begin to turn them into external problems.
Self-defense is bound to kick in to deny that there is a problem.
Because humans are such creatures.
And when you come to a situation that you cannot solve on your own, you look to others for a solution.
A being that is more transcendent than oneself.
It is God.
You end up praying to God to solve the problem.
And God does not answer.
Just as it is natural not to use one’s own power in the human world, God does not extend the hand of salvation to anyone.
But no one among people thinks that way.
At the last moment of death, I pray and pray, thinking that God will definitely save me.
It’s not that I don’t understand.
At the moment when you die because you are stuck with a problem that you cannot solve with your own strength, the only thing you can pray to in the end is God.
Nevertheless, God does not help humans mercilessly.
So does God exist?
Does a God exist in this world who provides no help but does not provide help?
Curious about that fact, I searched for cases where God had ever helped Inga, but it was said that such a thing had never happened.
I wanted to know about the existence of the God I did not know existed.
When you ask people about physical evidence that can prove the existence of God, they talk about divine power.
It is said that God is a divine power that lends his power to people.
Having had such doubts since I was young, I was taken into the local religious order where I lived and chosen as a saint.
Of course, if I was chosen as a saint, I could gain divine power, and I lived my life helping many people through my divine power.
Having received divine power, I was still curious.
Can you prove the existence of God just because God gives you this power?
Even if you ask other people, he is someone who will say that divine power is natural proof.
That’s why I personally investigated the existence of God.
Has God ever descended into this world directly or given his power directly, rather than simply giving us divine power?
Although it is a funny story that I, who was chosen as a saint, am questioning the existence of God and researching it.
However, according to my research, there has never been a time when God directly helped and saved humans.
Obviously, such a thing does not exist.
So where does this divine power come from?
It is said that sacred power is a power given by God and can only be used by priests, paladins, and saints.
However, the existence of God is unknown.
As a saint, I shouldn’t think about this, but I couldn’t shake my doubts about the existence of God.
That suspicion peaked the moment Demon’s existence was discovered.
The power that Demon showed was so powerful that it was difficult for us humans to solve it.
Even people who were known as strong people in this world died in an instant the moment a high-ranking demon appeared.
As a saint, she went to the front lines and tried to help injured people by recovering them, but the destruction of this world felt like a natural fact.
But then it appeared.
A person with previously unknown and extremely powerful power has appeared and is on his way to defeat Demon.
As someone who had seen a high-ranking demon right before my eyes, I couldn’t believe it.
In order to see with my own eyes that people can defeat such beings, I set out to find those people, and the people I met were Renia and Ellie.
The two used their incredible power to wipe out the demons.
Even though Ellie uses the same divine power as me, she emits a completely different output and defeats the demons.
Can we say that it is the same divine power?
On the other hand, I also felt different.
A person like this has never existed in any denomination.
And as I looked at Ellie’s power, doubts arose in my head once again.
If the power given by God is divine power, then why is it that only Ellie has been given so much power?
Because a crisis has come to this world from Demon?
So, are you saying that you gave strength to Ellie for a special reason?
But Ellie says she didn’t receive her divine powers before she entered any order.
No, it is said that his divine power was awakened while he was living as an ordinary citizen, let alone a member of a religious order.
Usually, her divine power is awakened when she joins a religious order, but how did Ellie’s divine power awaken?
Which god was she chosen by?
I had no idea about this.
There is another thing I don’t understand.
Then what kind of being is Renia?
Could it be that the power of God also intervened in Renia?
When I saw Lenia’s powers that were beyond her common sense, I could only think that God had intervened in the world.
From what we’ve seen so far, isn’t it true that God doesn’t intervene in this world?
This is the moment when I break from the common sense I have known so far.
I was so curious about that fact that I asked two people.
Where on earth did that power come from?
And the sisters told me.
They say that it was given to them by God, that they were chosen by God.
I asked him what kind of god he was chosen by, but he said he didn’t know much about that god.
I don’t know what kind of god she is, but she says she doesn’t have the power she originally had.
Anyway, it is said that he received that power from God.
What kind of god is this?
There are many denominations in this world.
This means that there are many different gods.
But what exactly is the God who gave power to Renia and Ellie?
I think he might be the first god to intervene in this world.
I researched their past without telling them, but I couldn’t find out about the existence of that god.
Could this be a newly born god?
Now I began to doubt the divine power I was using.
I even wondered if the divine power Ellie was using was real and the divine power I was using was fake.
Otherwise, there would be no such difference in power.
I so desperately wanted to know the truth.
So I quit being a saint.
At a time when I was doubting the existence of God, I thought that I was wrong as a saint and that I should have quit.
What’s interesting is that just because I stopped being a saint, her divine power didn’t disappear.
As my faith in God is fading away, why doesn’t God take away his divine power?
I couldn’t tell if what he meant was that regardless of one’s faith, one does not abandon the lamb who gave one’s strength.
I think that was when I started to feel skeptical about the life of a saint.
That day too, I prayed to God.
Please give me only the evidence that will allow me to believe in your existence as God.
Of course, I couldn’t hear God’s voice coming to me, and with God’s silence, I closed my eyes to sleep.
「… I have to choose… As a buffer…」
And in my dream I heard
An unknown male voice.
My eyes widened as I heard a voice for the first time.
Of course, it wasn’t my first time having a dream, but it was my first time having such a clear dream.
Rather than disappearing, memories in dreams remain vivid.
What was that voice?
But beyond the voices in the dream, something even more surprising happened.
An unknown power, a divine power, rose from my body.
A greater amount of divine power was released than ever before.
At that moment, I was unable to perceive the situation.
What on earth happened?
A method that no one had ever told me passed through my mind as to how to utilize this much divine power.
It was a method I had never tried before, even though I often used divine power.
There was only one thing I could think of in this situation.
I… Was chosen by a new god.
To a god like Renia and Ellie.
The moment I recognized it, I immediately went to see the two people.
There was one person added there.
There was Noah, who was chosen by God around the same time as me.
I knew it right away the moment I approached it.
All four people here were chosen by the same God.
Even when I was in the same denomination, I never felt the same sense of kinship when seeing the divine power in other believers.
However, it was enough to know without saying anything that the source of power used by everyone in this space was the same.
Does this mean that you were chosen by God?
This amazing amount of divine power, the memory of how to use it, and… A revelation and the voice of God in a dream!
This was clear evidence of the existence of God!
Yes, God exists.
That too was given to me by God.
