Chapter 54 – Abandonment
“You, you guys…”
Seeing Mirian and Lina’s faces, he must have come back to his senses a bit, and Horde’s strangling hand slowly began to loosen his grip.
“Cheuk… !”
When the strength in his hands was released, Horde did not miss that moment and pushed YuRia away from my seat.
“…”
Lina and Mirian looked at Horde with pitiful eyes and said,
“… Great job. You may go now.”
Even if he told me not to go, I thought about it, but when Lina gave permission, Hod ran outside without hesitation.
Horde left the room, leaving only Lina, Mirian, and Yuria in the room.
Mirian was the first to open her mouth in an uncomfortable space where gazes came and went but not a single word came and went.
“… Did you really intend to kill Yuria?”
YuRia didn’t answer Mirian’s question for a while, and she looked at the stain on the reddish wall.
If Lina and Mirian had arrived just a little later, Horde would have turned into one of the stains in the room by now, like the stain on the wall.
YuRia smiled as she vomited her blood and imagined the Horde that would have strangled her to death.
“What’s wrong with that? Anyone who hears it will know that I am killing even an innocent person. Or do you still have feelings for that trash?”
“Yuria…”
Upon hearing that, Mi-an, instead of being angry, made a pitiful expression on her, and Yuria’s eyebrows narrowed.
How did you come to this point?
If she hadn’t been caught by Horde’s witchcraft that day, would she have been able to remain a pure Yuria even now?
Imagining an if that couldn’t happen now would only make me sad, but Mirian and Lina couldn’t erase that thought.
“… Like you said, that guy is trash. But that doesn’t mean we have the right to kill him.”
“… What are you talking about.”
“Even if we did it out of deception at first, after that we did it of our own volition.”
It was so lonely. Even though he knew that his body was the only purpose, he wanted someone’s hand.
Even if she made up her excuses like that, it didn’t make her past mistakes go away.
“That man is a human being who cannot be called a good man even with empty words. If YuRia, if you said you would kill that man for that crime, I wouldn’t have stopped it.”
However, Yuria from a while ago was caught up in emotions and tried to kill Horde to forget her mistakes.
Mirian could not tolerate that act, which was tantamount to murder.
“Yuria, I don’t want to see you just become a murderer.”
“…”
After coming to her senses, YuRia remembered what she had just done and shed tears.
It almost fell to the same level as the Horde, maybe even less.
“Sorry for harsh words… Me, I just…”
Seeing YuRia wailing as she lowered her head, neither Rina nor Mirian could say anything.
For a while, the room was filled with the sound of Yuria wailing, and it was quite a while before the wailing stopped.
“Have you calmed down a bit?”
“… Yes thank you Ha, I think I’ve calmed down a bit after crying.”
“Then can I give up being a hero now?”
“…”
As soon as the story that started the incident came out, Yuria, who had been speechless at most, closed again.
She didn’t want to talk about it even beforehand, but she couldn’t because of what Lina said before she came here.
‘I have to make Yuria give up her hero.’
‘… Is it really necessary? Even if it doesn’t come true, everyone has the right to like others…’
‘If I don’t give up that right, the same thing will happen again and again.’
‘… Still.’
‘And because of that right, if something like today happens again, even a hero might take special measures.’
‘A special measure? No way…’
Lina said she didn’t want to be like that. She said nothing more.
However, Mirian, who roughly guessed that it was a special measure, knew what it was without listening further.
And she promised. Before that happens, I will definitely make Yuria give up her hero today.
“… Yuria, are you lonely?”
It was difficult to express the emotions swirling in Yuria’s heart in one word.
When Martha and the warrior are together, she becomes jealous.
Every time she thinks of herself not being able to reach the warrior, she becomes furious.
And when I see her empty seat next to her every night, I feel her piercing loneliness.
All of these things were mixed together, and the dull emotions constantly swirled in Yuria’s heart.
“Lonely…”
I hate sleeping alone at night. I wish I had someone by my side when I fall asleep.
During this trip, Yuria realized that she was such a weak woman.
After hearing what YuRia had to say, MiAnn opened her mouth with pity in her eyes, and YuRia expected that words of comfort would come out.
“… Wouldn’t the hero be lonely too?”
“… Uh?”
However, the words that came out of Mirian’s mouth were completely different from what YuRia expected.
“When we were messing around with that guy, later Marta came in and it got a little better, but at that time even the hero must have felt left out.”
“…”
“Yuria, have we ever thought of being a hero?”
Yuria’s face wasn’t thick enough for her to answer that question with no.
Did she ever think of the hero’s happiness and not herself?
Even if Marta didn’t like her, Yuria could see that she was sincere towards the hero.
If YuRia was training alone, if she was having sex with other women, would she really be able to stand it?
Even if she is not in a romantic relationship but just a friend, will Yuria be able to withstand the situation in which she will feel quite alienated.
“Huh, huh… !!”
Until now, she hadn’t shown any interest in the hero sexually, so she was able to run away from the fact.
But now, thanks to Mirian’s words, Yuria had to face the fact that she had tried to avoid her eyes.
Tears flowed from YuRia’s eyes. Mirian and Lina, who just watched the scene, quietly approached Yuria who was sitting on the floor.
Then, like a frightened child, she gently hugged Yuria’s trembling back.
“Oops!”
The same thing happened at the inn one day, but unlike that time, Mirian was wearing light casual clothes instead of hard armor.
A warm feeling that she had never felt before passed through YuRia’s body.
Without a moment to be surprised at Mirian’s sudden action, Lina hugged Yuria’s back like Mirian did.
“Now, what are you doing for a second…”
She seemed to hate words, but she showed no sign of resistance.
No, on the contrary, YuRia’s heart, which had been cold at the touch of another person after a long time, was warming a little.
Mi-an, who hugged Yuria tightly with Rina, whispered into Yuria’s ear.
“Yuria, the mistakes we made will not go away. But it is not that there is no way to atone.”
“… How to atone The hero, who is the person in charge, doesn’t even consider that to be wrong.”
For sins to be forgiven, there must first be a sin and a victim to atone for.
However, in the first place, the hero did not consider the two to be love objects, so in fact, they were innocent of any crime.
Now that there are no victims to atone for, only the guilt of losing her way remains in Yuria’s heart.
To Yuria, Mirian whispered how she ran away out of guilt.
“If he can’t atone for the warrior, he just needs to do it for someone else. Aren’t there a lot of people in danger in this world right now?”
“… !!”
In fact, the rear was a little better, but I couldn’t bear to see the front lines close to the front lines.
If he sacrificed his body for the sake of the warrior and the people, it would be a bit of atonement.
Both of them knew how blatant this sounded, but whatever their motives, the point of dedicating themselves to others remained the same.
“And… I want you to share a little of the solitude you are embracing with us. I am not your lover, but I am your friend and colleague. People who love the same man will be able to sympathize a little with the loneliness and pain.”
“Huh, huh… !!”
As Yuria shed tears again, she also said to Rina, who was holding Yuria from behind.
“Don’t just lean on Mirian, it’s okay to lean on me too. I’m used to comforting my children and granddaughters. And… This is if you feel like it, but can you set me up on a blind date later? There may not be a person like the hero, but half of the world is male. There must be at least one guy you like.”
The sincere affection that transcends gender felt between the two of them was passed on to Yuria’s heart.
Even if she was told that she was trash, she just thought she wanted to be by the hero’s side.
Even now, there is no change in that heart, but if there is one thing that has changed, it seems that I can put up with that heart a little bit now.
Even if she had no men to rely on, Yuria had friends she could rely on.
Even if it was an act of averting her eyes from her reality and deceiving even herself, she wasn’t in a bad relationship with the two people who now embraced her.
‘Yes, now I can give up being a hero…’
Can give up…
Can I give up… ?
*****
As time passed and night fell, YuRia and the two of her left the room after packing up her belongings and went to find the warrior who was waiting for them at the dorm.
It wasn’t too late at night, but everyone was asleep in their own rooms because they were scheduled to leave as soon as dawn broke tomorrow morning.
However, YuRia and Mirian had not returned yet, so the hero stayed awake outside the inn while everyone was asleep.
Like a father waiting for his daughter to come home late, the warrior stood in front of the inn with an anxious expression.
YuRia’s footsteps stopped after witnessing such a hero, but when Rina and Mirian patted her back gently, her feet moved again.
“Warrior…”
“Yuria…”
When the eyes of the two people who found each other met, the two approached each other without anyone doing anything.
Her eyes were still puffy from the shedding of so many tears, but her expression was much better than when she first entered the room.
Looking at YuRia like that, the hero said with a grin that he judged that she was fine now.
“Looks like you’re fine now.”
“Huh… Sorry for the delay because of me.”
YuRia lowered her head while saying that, and the hero silently shook her head.
“No, it’s not worth a day’s delay when it comes to serving her co-workers. Rather than that, it’s really better now.”
“… It’s okay now. There won’t be anything like this in the future. For worrying… I’m sorry for bothering you. I apologize once again…”
“No, the night wind is cold… We’re leaving early tomorrow, so let’s go inside now.”
YuRia and Mirian nodded and went inside, but the hero did not go in and stared blankly at his back.
“… The warrior won’t enter?”
“I’ll go get some fresh air. I want to organize my thoughts.”
“… I see Then would you like to have a drink with me?”
“Alcohol?”
“Okay, let’s have a drink.”
