Chapter 637 – #92. Ahyeon (1)
Composer.
There was a time when she, too, wanted to stand on a fancy stage and sing.
The wall of reality was too high for her to achieve her dream.
‘I also lacked talent.’
The reason she doesn’t regret her past is because she did the best she could.
Despite all her hard work, she failed in her debut, which made her not cool but gave up her dream.
However, the aftereffects of giving up her dream were not immediately better.
In her opinion, the darkest period of her life was when she worked as an employee at Honey Enter.
She said, ‘It comforts her that she was able to work for Haesol, but that’s not enough.’
She seems to have convinced her then that being a star is something she really believes she is not capable of just about anyone.
Working as an employee of her, I learned how great the effort of the staff to support her stars was.
And she felt painfully that she couldn’t be a great person enough to put in such hard work and effort.
‘A celebrity becomes someone like Joo-ah and Hae-sol.’
She is dead, and when she wakes up, she will never be like Joo-a, her sister, or Hae-sol.
In particular, Joo-ah is very respectful.
Wasn’t she frustrated by the fact that she couldn’t debut as an idol and left her company and succeeded as an actress?
On the other hand, she didn’t know how to do anything herself, so she was afraid to go out into society, so she got a job as a company employee.
She said, ‘Because there was nothing I wanted to do then.’
It was really hard.
She didn’t know what to do with her future life, so she couldn’t bear to let go of the opportunity the company gave her.
What if it wasn’t Haesol?
Perhaps Ahyeon was still working as an employee at Honey Enter.
If that were the case, like other normal people, I would have been fed up with society, earning my salary and saving it all the time, looking for opportunities to meet men.
‘I’m not saying that such a life is bad, but honestly, compared to now, it’s true that it’s difficult. It’s a life without dreams and hopes.’
There is probably no one who doesn’t know how happy he is to be able to earn money while doing what he wants to do.
All I knew how to do was sing and dance.
Her problem was that she wasn’t good enough to sing or dance exceptionally well enough to teach others.
‘I’m glad I can still do music, even though I’ve gone back a bit.’
In that respect, he was very fortunate to be able to become a composer himself.
When he started composing, he didn’t even think that he would have a talent for this.
‘Honestly, it was normal back then.’
Although he studied dancing and singing intensively, he never never learned to compose.
Because at Honey Enter, when trainees wanted to learn something, they were not stingy.
At that time, when he learned, ‘It’s really difficult.’ I think I gave up before I even started.
Moreover, I was not interested in being a composer because it was a job that I hadn’t even entered as a dream candidate when I was young.
‘It was a composition like that…’
Now, I live a life that seems impossible if I can’t compose.
“You’re doing really well.”
“This? Don’t you think something is missing?”
It seems that the situation was similar when I became interested in composition and started learning it.
I didn’t think she was particularly good at it.
It’s hard! It’s so hard!! Should I give up? But if I don’t do this, what am I going to do with my life? I must have thought of that hundreds of times.
It was a situation where I had to compose, so even though it was difficult, I recklessly clung to it.
‘And at some point it changed.’
Composition, which used to be difficult, began to become easy.
At first, I thought it was because I was used to operating the machine.
But in fact, it’s not her boyfriend Jin Hae-sol.
She credits her experience with him with her songwriting as the driving force that made her what she is today.
Music that appears out of nowhere and sounds insignificant.
Every time she heard a special melody that she had never thought of, she would think that it was Haesol.
‘When will I be able to make music like this? No, is it possible?’
The inspiration for the music I want to make is constantly emerging.
However, she found it difficult to even follow the inspirations that came to her mind.
The problem is that the inspiration she came up with is lacking compared to Hae-sol’s music.
It seems that from then on, she began to make her thoughts about studying abroad concrete.
From the thought ‘I want to study abroad’ to the thought ‘Should I go study abroad?’.
However, even if she wanted to go to study abroad, it was not possible easily because she could not speak the language of the country properly.
She needed a lot of preparation before going abroad.
Surprisingly, it was her boyfriend who helped the process.
Her timidity and her unwillingness to give up gave her her courage and she continued to encourage her to study abroad.
Thanks to her, she had the courage to prepare.
“Finally go!!! Study Abroad!”
With the help of people around her, she completed her preparations for studying abroad.
She did not dare to say that she was going to study abroad to people other than her family who could not tell about Haesol’s specialness.
Going to that country only for learning.
She intended to move to this place for the rest of her life, so it was a way for her not to create a problem when she ran into it.
“There will be no one who goes on a luxurious study abroad trip like me. Thank you so much, Haesol. I wouldn’t have dared to do it if it wasn’t for you.”
Due to Ah-hyun’s usual personality, she doesn’t have the confidence to live in a foreign country by herself, so her study abroad must have been just an imagination.
To be honest, throughout her preparations for studying abroad, she had to suffer because her mind kept changing like her reed.
Even though she knows that going to study abroad is much more helpful to her, on the other hand, she has a complacent thought that this is enough.
It’s full of people who are impatient because they can’t even buy the songs they’re making right now.
A situation that is possible enough if you tried to be complacent.
Nonetheless, thanks to Haesol’s courage, Ahyeon made a choice to grow up a little more.
“It’s not like this, let’s go together when we go out.”
“You want to go together? Are you going to see me off?”
“No, I’m going to go with you to the house where you will live when you study abroad. It won’t be hard to adapt to it alone. I will go with you and spend a few days helping you.”
“Omg! Really? Normally, I’d say it’s okay once, but to be honest, it was very scary. Thank you Hee…”
“How can we send our cowardly rabbit alone? Just making a decision is a proud and admirable thing, but I have to do it at this level. In fact, I feel like this will put my mind at ease.”
I can’t believe that such a reliable man is her lover.
Ahyeon, who had melted away in the sweetness of his lover, showed all sorts of charms in his arms.
Without caring about the eyes of others!
“How would I live without you?”
“No. Why do you imagine that? It’s a situation that’s not going to happen.”
Hee hee! I love you, sweetheart!”
“I love you too.”
They became a pair of cockroaches and didn’t think about separating from each other for a long time.
As long as he was held in Hae-sol’s warm arms, he seemed to be able to say that he would be willing to live with him for the rest of his life.
Giving up this peaceful space because of studying abroad?
That would never happen.
However, her capable lover made a way for her to be embraced by her even when she went to study abroad.
“I’ve laid all the boards up to this point, but if I can’t do it, I’ll be an idiot, right? I’ll do well.”
“Then~ Of course you can do well. Don’t be intimidated for nothing, be bold! Know?”
“Huh! I will work hard.”
So I will write a song that is so great that you want to sing it.
‘At times like this, I think it would have been better if he hadn’t composed music…’
There are times when he likes to compose and there are times when he doesn’t like it.
I liked the fact that when I had a conversation with him on the subject of composing, I could sympathize with each other without difficulty, and I hated that I kept feeling jealous when I saw his outstanding talent.
When he thought of his boyfriend who was infinitely good to him, he didn’t want his petty, ugly side to be found out.
Ah-hyun was clearly aware that it was not good for her to envy her boyfriend’s talent.
It was fortunate that her boyfriend knew her jealousy but didn’t care too much.
He was rather the one who tried to appease her jealous of herself.
‘If I go to study abroad and start learning properly, I’m sure these thoughts will go into it.’
That’s why her study abroad this time is important to her.
Opportunities to develop properly do not come often.
“It’s been a really blessed year for me. You must have saved the country in your previous life. That’s why I was able to meet you.”
Ah Hyun’s outspoken words made her boyfriend laugh.
From her point of view, it was her sincere words, but her words.
“Do you like me that much?”
“Huh. Without you, I would have continued to work and live. I didn’t even think about composing music, and even if I did, I wouldn’t have been able to create such a good song all at once. I can’t imagine how long it must have taken for me to sell a song and establish myself as a composer.”
Haesol’s music has been of great help to her.
There was no study more helpful to her than listening to other songs in order to compose her songs.
In particular, Hae-sol, who made this song, even told her story by telling her what she was thinking when she made this song, so it couldn’t help her improve her skills.
“If you like Seo-Bang-nim that much, why don’t you try acting aegyo? And if you say you are busy studying abroad and neglect me, you will get angry.”
“How could I neglect you? That is impossible.”
“Even if it’s like this now, if you start studying in earnest, you’ll get greedy and I might end up taking a back seat.”
“I’m very lonely, so I’ll never do that.”
In the first place, she is the girl who lived a life far from books during her school days.
Is she distracted from her boyfriend because she is preoccupied with her studies?
It was a story that could not be imagined no matter how much music was studied.
“And I have a goal.”
“Target?”
“I will study hard and write a song for you. I hope you can do a great job with that.”
“You already wrote a song for me. Did I like that song too?”
“No! I can’t be satisfied with those songs! I will make a song that I made with only you in mind, and that it suits you so well that no one else in the world will sing it. So you have to be at the level of asking me to sing this song.”
Now, it is a dream that may be ridiculed by everyone.
If you look at the value of Jin Hae-sol alone, apart from the group called Airplane, the difference is too great for her to compare.
Still, using your status as a girlfriend to present a song to you!
She was a reproach to her many composers who wanted him to sing her own songs.
‘So what? They say it’s my goal!’
I didn’t spend a lot of money other than the money I spent doing music, so from now on, I’ve earned enough to live without any problems.
Nevertheless, it was because of this goal that I was able to keep doing music.
“Is that really your goal?”
“Huh.”
“I’m just trying to impress you.”
“Don’t be moved yet. When I make a proper song, then I get moved. When you like the song, of course.”
As if my boyfriend had already received the song, he made a fuss and was delighted.
As he looked at her, her face lit up.
I still haven’t come up with a song that I’m satisfied with.
‘I have to work really hard.’
You must have a reason to study hard.
You can’t make a bad song when your lover is happy to be touched like that.
She was unable to sleep well due to her overflowing motivation and finished preparing to leave for study abroad.
