Chapter 157 – 157. Combine
That day, right before speaking.
I was deeply concerned about something I had never experienced in my life.
How can I tell you to understand?
How can I prove that we only have each other?
At that time, it was so serious and complicated that I was crazy.
I seriously thought about all sorts of things while looking face-to-face with Kyeol-gyeol, and this was the conclusion I came to after discussing it for half a day.
Let’s get down on our knees and apologize.
Let’s show you some wholesome, happy-looking photos from when you were dating.
If I explain in detail how we fell in love, he will understand.
If you still don’t understand, let’s get down and cry.
Now that I think about it, I don’t know what I was doing.
Seeing her breathless mother as soon as she noticed what we were about to say, I couldn’t remember anything about the plan or what.
I skipped everything with white hair and started crying, and somehow it worked out, but it wasn’t because we were good at it.
It’s just that her mom cared for us so much.
It was a foolish idea to believe that I, who had no blood in her head, could convince her mother with her words, even though the memories she had built up with her mother and her parents and children spanned well over 20 years.
If I tell her sincerely, her mother will accept it with all her heart.
In the end, in front of the word family, plans and everything are meaningless, and sincerity must have been important.
The way I came to love Winter, and the way Winter came to love me.
It was a coincidence, not something planned.
If even one thing goes wrong while reaching the ending without regret,
It must have reached a different ending.
“Hello…?”
“Oh, welcome.”
Therefore,
This person also contributed to our happiness to some extent.
I took on material responsibility for things like living expenses, not in this sense.
What you did wrong is what you did wrong, and what you want to take responsibility for now is what you want to take responsibility for.
He’s the one who left everything else behind and made half of me and Winter.
Whether you hate it or not, you can’t treat someone who doesn’t exist.
“Is my husband here?”
“Uh, honey.”
After ten years have passed, Dad has finally set foot in the house.
I lived elsewhere before my divorce, so this is probably the first time I set foot in this house.
Feelings are new.
It’s not uncomfortable or awkward.
Somehow, it seems like a new life is really starting.
If I had been discharged without anything special, I would have felt like this.
“Don’t stand awkwardly at the entrance and come in quickly. The four of us should eat together.”
“Okay.”
Of course, maybe I’m the only one who isn’t awkward.
Right now, even Winter is hiding behind my back, thinking about how to react.
It’s still an adaptation phase.
Just like I had a face with winter until I graduated from high school.
You have to get used to it slowly.
Because blood ties won’t disappear anyway.
I’ll never be far from you again
“Father. Come on in.”
“⋯Yes.”
One day this person will notice our relationship too.
My mom said never to tell me, but she said that one day, whether it be me, winter, or mom, someone will have to tell me.
What kind of expression will the father make when he realizes that fact?
What,
No matter how you react, we couldn’t be more afraid.
I have the confidence to convince you this time.
“You’re home, Dad.”
“That, yes. Winter.”
I can do anything with you
If mom believes in her, she can do anything.
You two gave birth to us perfectly.
So,
“Let’s eat together. Father.”
“⋯Yes. Let’s eat, kids.”
As much as her mother’s request to live happily,
She couldn’t protect her. She wasn’t confident.
***
She was originally a respectable mother, but in my heart, her loyalty to her mother was growing squarely every day.
Mom didn’t ask anything.
How did we get to this point,
How did you cross the line?
Why couldn’t I hide it and had to say it?
She didn’t ask a single question, she just understood that we were having a hard time.
“So you’re both going to live on your own from next week?”
“Yes. I’m leaving before the end of May. I already got a room.”
A little after that day, after discussing it with the three of us, my mother came to the conclusion that it would be better for the two of us to move out and live together.
If you ask me if I need to do that since I’ve already confessed everything, there was.
No matter how much my mother understands us, it’s not acceptable to show her brother-sister affection.
Moderately winter, I decided to pick a place with two rooms near the university and live together.
“That, isn’t it a non-face-to-face class? You don’t have to go out…”
“I thought my father would be uncomfortable if I stayed here.”
“Dad is fine…”
“Just joke.”
I had no intention of hiding my relationship with Winter anymore.
It’s not something that can be hidden.
Even if you think of the troubles you went through during your short college life, you can clearly see the hardships ahead.
Now that we’re students, if we’re mentally ok, we’ll be able to gloss over it somehow.
However, as time passes and you reach the age of marriage, there will definitely be many people who think it is strange.
‘Aren’t you getting married in autumn? Oh, do you live with your brother?’
‘Can’t go today because of a date? Did you have a girlfriend?’
‘⋯Call me to come home soon? Your brother?’
‘Hey, you’re 40 years old, and you’ll be with your brother for the rest of your life…’
Ugh
Just thinking about it is terrifying.
Of course, there is no elder as wide as me around me…
There are only cousins and older sisters.
10 years will change the mountains and rivers, so no matter what, I don’t think the day will come when I’m used to living with my younger brother for the rest of my life.
“I will go to college while living on my own, and after graduating, I will follow my mom and dad.”
“⋯Are you coming to Canada?”
“I have to go. You said it would be nice to live there?”
So grab it while you have the chance.
It is not an escape or an escape.
It’s a new challenge.
“After all, Winter is good at English, and I just need to learn some conversation. If you follow me, you will earn money and live.”
⋯And most overseas countries become the same last name after marriage, right?
Especially in Western countries, Asians can’t tell the difference between their faces, so unless you’re having a baby and living together, you won’t find out that you’re siblings.
Wouldn’t it be a problem if we just blurted out that it was a common-law relationship?
“Anyway, I might change my mind again at that time, but I intend to go for now.”
“⋯Yes. Dad will prepare with Mom.”
“Yes.”
I don’t think I’m going to make friends deep enough to share my worries there.
It’s possible to talk about your worries with a friend you’ve already become close to over the phone.
One winter is enough for a friend who can open up his life, not just worries.
“Hey, winter. Are you going too?”
“I’m not going.”
“What, all of a sudden. You said you were going until yesterday.”
“I suddenly hated going today. But I think I will want to go again tomorrow.”
“Don’t joke. Scare people.”
Even if you just eat a joke like this, it’s full of fun,
“I’m not going, so why is my brother surprised?”
“I can see your tail even when I don’t see how you live alone. How can I leave you alone in Korea?”
“You worry too much.”
Just worrying about each other makes us proud.
There’s nothing really wrong with friendships being a little narrower.
You’re not going to live there all your life, and you’ll be back often.
So there is no reason to be sad already.
It’s not a thing right now anyway.
“Okay, that’s it! Let’s eat. Everyone.”
Just in time, her mother took a pot full of the scent of the sea and put her stew in the middle of her table.
Yes, it’s all about eating and living.
Let’s go and think about the memories to leave later.
“Ah, yes. Is this crab soup?”
“That’s right. Mom cooked it.”
“Mom, how did you know that I like blue crabs?”
“I don’t know who the baby is.”
“⋯Thank you, honey.”
I thought so
Father, alone and overcome with memories, covered his face and began to sob inappropriately for his age.
Because of that, the lively atmosphere calmed down and became solemn in an instant.
“Why are you suddenly like this again?”
“Just… Just thank you.”
⋯Me, father.
I understand why you are like that, but what if you are already like that?
Whether you’re sorry or thankful, please eat and do it.
If you suddenly do this before a meal, you’ll get sick.
“Calm down, you. We ate together, but what are you going to do?”
“⋯Sorry.”
“Stop saying sorry. It’s boring, really.”
“Sorry…”
“Stop and eat, please. Shall I apply crab meat?”
“No, ⋯it’s okay. I will eat.”
Looking at her mother comforting her grown-up father, she turned her head.
Likewise, she looked at the two of them and was drawn to my gaze, and she made a promise with Winter, who briefly met, with her eyes.
Let’s never hurt her mother’s heart again.
We are happy, and mom is happy too. By the way, father too.
Let’s all laugh together and live well.
I know it’s a very abstract and ambiguous promise, but
Even so, my heart felt at ease.
Even if we don’t hold hands anymore.
Just by looking at each other and smiling, the warmth was conveyed well.
