Suspiciously Close Siblings 62

Chapter 62 – 62. First Year of High School, Summer

Summer has arrived.
The first vacation I had after becoming a high school student.
I didn’t even step out of the house.
It’s not that I didn’t keep in touch with my friends, but I hate hot things.
I hate sweating, and I hate hurting my skin.
I don’t like it when people look at me when I go out in thin clothes.
I’d rather be cold
In winter, you can wear it and cover it up.
Of course, my favorite thing is the autumn weather.

Likewise, my older brother, who was on vacation, returned home.
No matter what the wind picked up, he shut himself up in his room.
Until then, I often forcibly dragged him around, but even that disappeared during vacation.
Why is that person doing that even after entering college?
Even if you don’t go out with me, go outside. Don’t you have friends?
I was curious, so I looked into it for a while, and it seemed like I was studying for the college entrance exam.
⋯What is it?
Are you doing that to drop out of school?
I couldn’t hold back my curiosity, so I asked a sneak peek while bringing coffee.

“Brother, are you studying?”
“No.”
“Then what are you doing? Grab hold of the reference book for the college entrance exam.”
“Just. I was bored so I looked into it for a while.”
“⋯.”
“⋯I can’t do half of it because my brain is hardened. I am.”

My brother sighed deeply in a voice full of regret and closed the reference book.
I thought it was okay because I had been fine for over half a year, but do I still have regrets that much?
I’m still in the first year of high school, so I don’t know if I can’t feel it.
Well, my brother studied so hard when he was a student.
⋯ Looking at my brother’s bitter face,
I didn’t feel very good.

“Kim Winter.”
“Ah, yes.”
“Do you want to go play tomorrow?”
“⋯Me?”

⋯ Huh?
Suddenly?
My older brother, who had looked somber until recently, changed his attitude and asked me where the mischief came from.
Even though the tone was still blunt.

“Uh. Let’s hang out. Vacation is over.”
“Isn’t it hot outside?”
“Mom asked me to take you outside. Don’t just stay in your room, go out and sweat for a long time. He also lent me the car keys. I got my driver’s license, so I should try driving.”
“⋯.”
“And my sister gave me tickets to an amusement park. I made someone to go play with and asked to use it, but I can’t throw it away.”
“Isn’t that… That… You gave it to me to go hang out with my college friends?”
“⋯ Would you ask me to go with you? You can’t go there with a man.”

⋯ Ha.
So you’re saying I’m a woman?
Of course, it has to be a woman… But it’s a younger sister.
That her mother ordered it, or that Anna gave her the ticket. Since I got my driver’s license, I want to drive a car. Is it okay to go with a man?
Only one excuse to make.
He’s a really dishonest person.
Why do you go round and round when you ask me to go with you?
⋯Do you think I won’t be able to ask someone to join the army in a few months?
I’m not that bad of a sister.

“⋯You only need to go, right?”
“Uh.”
“Then… Okay.”

When I had no choice but to agree, my brother smiled happily at me.
⋯ It really doesn’t suit me, laughing.
I think it suits me better if I’m drooping like before.
But what⋯
Because he’ll be gone soon
Until then, let’s be kind.
You’re my brother
I have to keep watching even after I’m discharged.

***

“Hey, Kim Winter. What’s the matter. Can’t you hear your friend’s voice?”
“⋯Why.”
“Something happened during vacation, so I’m so depressed all day.”
“⋯Nothing happened.”
“When we asked to come out, he didn’t even step out, so who did you have so much fun with?”
“I haven’t gone anywhere.”
“Really? Don’t lie.”
“⋯Go to an amusement park once and that’s it. With my brother.”
“Eh, what is it? No fun I thought I had a boyfriend.”

Vacation is over.
The weather is still hot, and summer shows no sign of going.
Even the friends I met again didn’t change much.
What has changed is
It was just me.

“What. Winter Kim. Why no response Originally, you would be angry if you did this.”
“⋯Don’t talk to me because I’m tired.”
“What. What happened during vacation?”
“⋯.”
“What is it, shut your mouth all of a sudden.”

As usual, when I noticed that he was harassing me, I secretly came to my side as if I wanted to be at this time.
⋯Ah, annoying.
Everything is annoying.
Hate.
I hate everything. I don’t like it either.
I don’t like my brother either.
I want to kill entire.

“What happened?”
“⋯.”
“⋯Do you tickle me if you don’t talk? Yap. Is it itchy?”

It sounded like he was talking about something, but it didn’t reach my ears at all.
It didn’t tickle at all that he pricked his side.
⋯I think I’m going crazy.
Really.

“What is it?, What really happened?”
“Doesn’t exist. Leave it alone because there is none.”
“Don’t bullshit. That’s what you say when something happens.”
“⋯I’m seriously contemplating whether to continue my life, so could you please move away?”
“Eh, what is it? Did you read a strange book during Kim’s winter break? Were you lonely without us? Shall I stroke you?”

I even tried to take it off by making dangerous noises in the sense of not sticking to it, but the kids called friends continued to play around and chatter around me, as if they couldn’t even read the atmosphere.
⋯Oh, that’s really not helpful.

“⋯ It doesn’t matter. With you.”
“What a shame. My friend is seriously thinking about it, shouldn’t we ruin the atmosphere by bullying? Isn’t that right, Nara?”
“Gorum Gorum. That’s right.”
“⋯”
“I won’t bother you if you tell me what’s going on. Are you going to keep doing this until I tell you?”
“⋯Listen and don’t laugh.”
“Don’t laugh, don’t laugh. I have a lot of worries, really.”

⋯Let’s just lie and shake it off.
Because it’s something I can never say.

“⋯I went to an amusement park a few days ago. With my brother.”
“Huh.”
“I went and played, and then I came back home.”
“⋯ Huh?”
“I was told that I would go to the army in February. I was a bit lonely. This is the end it’s okay?”
“⋯What are you talking about, winter?”

Ha⋯.
Lying is so hard
It’s too difficult to make up words that don’t exist.
⋯So I tried to put together as much as possible,
It’s strange even I think.
What’s this.
It’s like I…
You seem to like your brother too much.

“What is it, what is it? With just that?”
“Eh, is it so hard that you want to die because your older brother is going to the army?”
“⋯.”
“What, really? He’s totally… That’s it. Fuhehehe…”
“Poop, ah, Nael. Do not laugh. How hard winter is right now.”

No matter how I tried to make excuses, I didn’t think it would be resolved, so I let them misunderstand on their own.
⋯ Rather, this is better.
Maybe it’s better to laugh and talk like that.
I love my older brother so much that I might have a younger sister who feels lonely when he says he is going to the army.
Compared to me who is seriously thinking about this,
It was much more realistic.

“Oh, our winter. Are you feeling lonely because your brother is going to the army?”
“⋯.”
“Stop. Winter will cry is not it?”
“⋯.”
“⋯Hey, are you really crying?”
“Ah, no matter how hard it is… What. It’s real.”
“⋯I won’t cry.”

⋯I didn’t cry. Because of that
Whether or not my brother disappears has nothing to do with me.
It has nothing to do with my brother.
It’s not because I’m worried about that.

“Uh, um. ⋯ Winter? Is it still August? Half a year left.”
“⋯How about it, I’m good at pretending to cry.”

So I’m not crying.
Pretending to be
I really hate my brother going to the army.
I’m a foolish little sister.
I feel lonely at the thought of falling.
So I wanted to pretend that I was crying.

“⋯ Winter, you’re really bad at acting.”
“What.”
“Your voice is shaking.”
“⋯Pretending to cry.”
“Wow, really Kim Winter. It’s crazy. Don’t you like him too much, don’t you?”
“When will I…”
“It’s the first time I’ve seen a kid whining since half a year ago that my older brother is going to the army. So are you, Nara?”
“I know. ⋯ It’s okay. It’s hard to say that my brother is very good at it. ⋯Aren’t you a little envious of an older brother like that?”
“Ah, but you don’t have a real brother… Don’t you? As long as winter is my brother. He’s very kind, buys me a phone, buys me gifts, buys me food, takes me to an amusement park, but he’s neat, handsome, reliable, and a good older brother who’s good at studying.
“A brother like that is going to go to the army, so Winter is going to cry, right?”
“That’s right. Winter is not strange.”

⋯ No. Want to cancel
I cry because you make fun of me by pretending to comfort me.
It’s never like that.
Never,
Even if you die,
I won’t admit this feeling.

“⋯No, stop it. Oppa is not that kind of person Not friendly at all.”
“Ah, so is Miss Kim Winter here so kind that her brother, who isn’t even kind enough to cry because he’s going to the army?”
“⋯It’s just that, since we are family, we take good care of them. I’m treating you like a kid. I don’t like you at all.”
“Gyeol-ah, the more you make excuses, the weirder it gets, so just admit it. You can’t lie.”
“That’s right. You have to be honest with your feelings. You could be a little closer to your brother, what is that? Goman TikTikdae.”
“⋯.”
“Before your brother enlists in the army, say at least one word, ‘Thank you, brother. Hey, if you act cute with your face like that, will it really melt?”
“If I had a younger sister like Winter, I would have been able to hear those words~ I envy you so much~ I envy you too~”

There is no way I would say such a thing to my brother, even if the sky turns upside down.
He seduced her sister to go to the amusement park, making every excuse.
When he did follow me, he said it was an attached package and took me to the water park.
They said they didn’t have a swimsuit, so when did you prepare it, throw a rash guard.
While pretending to play in the water, keep touching, touching, messing with your hair, holding hands so that you don’t get lost.
⋯I just finished it and went to the amusement park, so this time I put a headband with strange animal ears on it.
I praised him for looking good on him, teased him, and tried to take a picture of him, so he stopped him, so he stroked his hair.
I don’t want a brother like this even if he dies.

For the first time in my life, I was excited
You’re my brother
Even if you die, don’t admit it.
If this is my first love,
Never want to believe
⋯Never.